This post is primarily for me, if you want to read it you can, but it’s actually a reminder to myself.
This is a new beginning for me, in a way, but in a way, it’s not. It’s really just me continuing down this path that the Lord is leading me down. The new part probably has more to do with me actually following the Lord and trusting Him as I seek to do His will.
That was the first 3 sentences of the first post of this blog that I wrote on October 23, 2004. I should be commemorating my one year anniversary in about a month, but instead, I’m doing some reflection now. (Although, there may still be an anniversary party in about a month!)
You may have noticed that I have not posted much lately and there’s a very good reason for my lack of posts. I’m too stinkin’ busy! The last couple of weeks have been busy in every aspect of my life and I have been running until near exhaustion. This week is probably just as busy, except I’m now slowing down in some specific areas. I’m actually seeing my family this week, and that did not happen last week, hardly at all.
Once things started slowing down, over last weekend, I thought of posting again and really struggled with what to write. The depths of my writing well felt dry, which is not as profound as it sounds, considering I’m technically not a writer, I just play one on my blog.
This has led me to ask in my head ‘What’s the point?’ At first, I honestly had no clue and I think that had to do with the residual exhaustion I was still feeling, even into Monday of this week. To remind myself of what the point of this blog is, I went back to the beginning to get a glimpse of why I started doing what I’m doing. By the way, I did not start this intending to have any real audience. I’m not sure I expected much of anything, I certainly didn’t start this intending to get any kind of a reader base. I’m truly amazed at the number of people that cruise through here on a weekly and even a daily basis. Of course, if I analyze my stats correctly, they have increased in this time that my posts have decreased. That seems crazy but maybe by not writing, I’m actually attracting people…..hmmmmm
Romans 12:1-2 was a focus back then and verse 1 remains in the right column of this blog, even now:
So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life – your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life – and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
The point of this blog initially was to follow where God was leading me, which is not always easy. It is easy to get in the way of God’s will, but I’m learning to trust God more and more all the time.
So, what am I doing here today? To quote myself, from above:
…following the Lord and trusting Him as I seek to do His will.
I don’t know what my future holds, but I do know it’s out of my control and I need to trust that God is in control.
The focus needs to remain on Christ, regardless of what I do, day to day.
By the way, if you are interested, click here to go to the intro page to the original Church Tech Matters blog. (This link is always in the right column.) The first 7 posts have individual links, then the remaining ones are all lumped together in one long page. For those of you who have been with me from the beginning, all of those pages are in the old design/template. This is mainly because I’m lazy and haven’t taken the time to import the old posts. (From October til about April, this blog was at Blogger.) Also, looking back the other night, I discovered that the first month or so of posts were not included in that page, so that’s why they are listed separately.
This post has just been a way for me to sort out my thoughts, I hope my numbers don’t drop off because I’m posting something, though!